Feeling and Emotions

I don't know how exactly living with cancer is. It so much all rolled into one, that you feel half of the time that you might explode. So, I'll do my best.

Sometimes, you feel caged like an animal. You can't go do anything for fear of your health. And no one can visit because they might be sick.

Sometimes, you feel alone. You know that nobody knows exactly how you feel, because nobody has experianced it exactly as you have. Some people are more lucky then others. Some have loving families to help them. Some have no one.

Sometimes, you would rather just die. Why take all the pain of cancer when you could more easily die then anything.

Sometimes, you might even curse God and everything else. Why did God let this happen to you? What did you do wrong to get punished?

Sometimes, you might even rebel. It's much easier to not take medicines then take them. It's much easier to not visit the doctor because of the pain.

But, as I know, you can pull through it, despite all the heart ache and agony. As Doctor. Martin Luther King Jr said, "The true measure of a man is not where they stand in times of comfort, but where he stands in times of trouble."

Chemotherepy and Radiation

Well, I got a bunch of chemotherapy. Most of the medicines that they gave me were really in the experamental stage. When I found this out, it was only after I had been cured. I'm like, you gave me meds that weren't even proven yet? I'm a guinea pig?

I never did get radiation, which people mistaken as the main treatment of cancer. It is not. It is just one of the ways they combat cancer.

What about me

Hi, my name is Adam. I am 18. But, I had cancer when I was 11. So, I decided to make a blog on my experiance with cancer.